Plot twists, unpredicted
Tuesday, July 3rd, 2012 11:38 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
joyfinderheroSo we talked. And talked some more. DH has been very cooperative about most things. He came back to NJ earlier than planned, citing unhelpful weather for drying out sails and clearing all the canvas off the boat. We talked some more.
Just when I think I know what we'll do, he throws me a lifeline of deep self-disclosing conversation. Just when he thinks the most important thing is to 'officially' notify them as need to know, I balk. Am I not sure what I want? No, that's not it.
What seems clear in this moment is that
* I'm still sure what kind of relationship I want
* I'm not as certain as I was last week about that being unavailable here
* I need to honor his slower processing time
* He needs to honor my desperation.
Back to our beloved and highly useful counselor this afternoon. The plot thickens.
Just when I think I know what we'll do, he throws me a lifeline of deep self-disclosing conversation. Just when he thinks the most important thing is to 'officially' notify them as need to know, I balk. Am I not sure what I want? No, that's not it.
What seems clear in this moment is that
* I'm still sure what kind of relationship I want
* I'm not as certain as I was last week about that being unavailable here
* I need to honor his slower processing time
* He needs to honor my desperation.
Back to our beloved and highly useful counselor this afternoon. The plot thickens.