Depression?

Hard time getting started today. Is it just that I have three commitments, each of which is 'time approximate after __' and all the blanks are on the other person's side?

Is it just that there's no particular reason to do any of this stuff 'today' as opposed to 'some other day'?

Dragged myself out to get rid of half the empty boxes after the person who had agreed to take them decided 'some evening this week' would be better. Which didn't work for me because:

* the evenings this week are more than half booked, especially the first ones
* on Wednesday the apartment will once again fill up with full boxes - no room for the empties to stay here.

So I did it. But it was more of a struggle than I expected. And I'm still struggling -- I should vacuum the hallway, sweep the kitchen, empty and refill the litter box. I should take a bath. I should ...

I could be making art. I could be doing Yoga. Instead ...

So what is under this?

Fear of tomorrow, possibly -- I have something huge to do, that I'd like to do well, but for which I could have prepared better. What if I mess it up? What if it looks fine to other people but I don't take adequate care of myself while doing it? What if somehow I get hurt?

Maybe it's that. Now I'll go start a bath.