Going public

[joyfinderhero]

So I've had this blog for months, though only posted sporadically. I've been reading other people's blogs just a bit more often, trying to get a sense of the flavor of this new-to-me medium.

Finally this week I e-mailed my family and a few local friends to let them know I'm here.

Now I'm wondering if I 'oughta' feel constrained, 'oughta' self-censor. Have I said anything one or another of them wouldn't like? 'Should' I be anticipating receiving their judgment?

Thank the Goddess for another 'now' -- because this 'now' I'm laughing at myself for that. What's the point of letting it all hang out in public if I'm gonna not let it hang out?

A friend of mine studies Radical Honesty, and from her I learned that my self-censorship of myself expresses a lack of trust in both of us -- it shows I'm not trusting myself to be valuable and loved as I am, and it shows I'm not trusting you to be generous enough to accept me and love me as I really am. In addition, it expresses a huge load of hubris -- like I think I can tell what 'imitation me' you would actually like better!?!

So ... today is about procrastination, and productivity, and getting things done, and knowing my limits. Today I recognized that mid-afternoon on a high-humidity gray day is not my most productive time to be sitting at the computer.

Tonight I'm actually working ... and feeling productive ... and making progress on this week's gotta-get-it-done list.

Hurray!

Comments

[bellamagic.livejournal.com]

I felt the same way when starting this blog. However, I did something a little different: you can set up your friends list into catagories. Some things I write I only want my "magical" community to read, other stuff is open to all. Of course, YMMV :-). Looking forward to reading more of your stuff!

Someone wise once told me...

[(Anonymous)]

"Don't do other people's thinking for them." I take it to mean that I can guess and speculate all day long about what someone else will think, but 9 times out of ten I'll be wrong anyway, and it's far easier to let them do their own thinking. Write what you want to write, and I'll love ya anyway. Can't speak for anyone else, though, 'cause I'm not s'possed to think for them....

Love and Blessings,
Rhiannon